I’m Coming Back

It’s been almost a month since my last post and that was just a picture of a gym visit.  After ending my September raw food thing early I went through kind of a bad period with food.  It backfired, I was too rigid and I was too constrained and when I admitted to myself that I could not do it for a full month I broke down and started eating with reckless abandon.  I would go on binges when I got home from work.  I started to drink a lot of soda again and began eating really crappy things for lunch, like fries from the cafeteria or whole bags of pretzels (which contain way more than one serving by the way).  I stopped getting on the scale for fear that I had just eaten myself back up in weight.  A couple of weeks in a row of not getting on the scale allowed me to continue to eat carelessly because there was not going to be any consequences.  Of course I wasn’t posting on the blog at all, what would you all think of me.  But, I am coming back, with my tail between my legs.

Slowly, I have begun to emerge from this black whole of food and I am struggling again to make healthy decisions each day.  Today is Friday, my normal day to get on the scale and check my progress but I am gonna put in hold for one more week.  Next Friday I will get on the scale and we will assess the damage together.  I am going to begin counting calories again and even though each food choice will be a chore I will get back into the rhythm of things.

I hope you will continue to join me on this journey.  Sorry that I left you hanging for a while.  My big goal right now is to weigh less than 200 pounds, no matter how long it takes.